Yesterday I was in a foul mood all afternoon... Can't Facebook do that to you sometimes? I got an invite to an event... not just any event... my 20 year high school reunion. F me.
It was sent by one of my close friends, who on a whim decided to send out a date and venue and just an informal, "If ya show, ya show, if ya don't, ya don't kind of thing. And the date just happens to be six weeks away. What the hell was she thinking? I mean I could fast for the next six months and still wouldn't show my face.
Ten years ago, I helped plan our ten year reunion... Not that I wanted any part in that this go around... It was big time fun and all but when the caterer ran out of alcohol because our class knows how to throw it down, I wanted to cry... and then my B-F-F and I were sent to our hotel rooms by our other Bestie and our hubby's and didn't even make the after party. Thank goodness for that because we would have been a hot mess at Bungalow's. And let's just say we faced the worst walk of shame ever when we had to clean the fire department we had rented the next morning but were locked out because we had left it unlocked with the keys in it and the chocolate fountain still running... Not our finest moment... Luckily the Firemen had taken over after we left. But.... it was one hell of a time.:)
Anyhow... I shot of a message to my friend and said, "That high school reunion needs to be pushed back four months so I can lose weight." I was pretty proud of myself... I didn't even request the eight months I really wanted to squeeze in a boob job. Sheesh! She fired back, "There is never a "good time"! If we wait till summer, people have family vacations... Fall kids are in school. Ya can't win."
And that stung.
There is never a "good time."
Say it again, There is never a "good time."
She's right. There is never a good time. That has been my excuse for years. I mean, look at my week. Saturday was a baseball tournament and I was on the road, running around, didn't prepare and that called for Chick-Fil-A. Sunday was WrestleMania and by golly my family had the best Jalepeno Cheese Dip on the east of the Mississippi... not to mention pizza, wings, homemade lemon cake... I could go on and on but let's just leave it at this Mama didn't touch the fruit bowl. Monday was my daughter's birthday party and 21 day fix got pushed back because I just had to partake in the pizza and cupcakes. I mean I couldn't skip it like ten of the other Moms. Nope, not me. And last night, I got this reunion notification, the hubby was traveling, and that just gave me free range to eat my emotions. And I'm sure today will be something else. I mean I am visiting my Mama and Daddy's and I just know they'll whip me up something good...
There is never a "good time" to start my weight loss journey.
And then it hit me. Like a pound of rocks. Or a knuckle sandwich to the face.
There is never a "good time" to want to skip out on seeing people you love and care about. There is never a good time to want to dodge life events. There is never a good time to want to stop being full of life because of a number on a scale or a few rolls around your middle. There is never a good time to let your actions and your choices that are holding you back to control your life. There is never a good time to not want to take photos with your family. The list goes on.
I have to stop the excuses. I have to make better choices. And I have to go all in.
The time is NOW. Trainer at 9am. Making a shake so I don't ask my Daddy to make me chipped beef in gravy. The time is now because I am worth it.